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GOD SAVE ME BUT DON’T Drown Me Out… is Epically Executed Beautifully- Kaleidoscope Thoughts By Amy
Looking at the clock and the world is somehow turning still, trying not to burn in flames, came Yung Bloods lyrics to save me from myself and the reality I was currently facing at the moment in time. All perfectly timed as always. After you look past the weird part of his ex being Halsey and his New BFF is MGK you can actually discover this guys tallent. It’s super easy to dismiss him as the EMO rapper wanna be for people in my age group ( thirty something something but not forty). You have to think back twenty years..I grew up when EMO was evolving. Screaming Infidelities at my dashboard while I was driving 90 on I75 to Clearwater Beach being all cool depressed emo was frowned upon. Especially where I grew up.(The middle of nowhere ville which I just somehow managed to make it back here twenty years later after I vowed I would never ever). That created a fake version of myself. A version where I had to hide who I really was and really honestly only had the courage to show one person, she was version I hated with so much passion it led me down winding roads of self destructive behavior that had no end.
And I won’t let my insecurities define who I am, I am
Not gonna waste my life ’cause I’ve been fucked up
‘Cause it doesn’t matter -Yung Blood
When I listened to this in the middle of the night being that thirty something emo depressed mom wondering how in the hell her son is going to be 17 on Sunday just is not cool at all. Now I’m now resonating with Yung Blood is even more not soooo cool and people don’t even say cool anymore. I’m sure my teenerages are dying a trillion deaths inside when they have to listen to me sing while taking them where the hell they want to go GO and do what they do. I’m sure of this because I have slapped arms down from volume about to flip mode.. “MY CAR!MY MUSIC! I WILL PUSH YOU OUT SON!”…some other choice words only MOM of the year type get..EYE ROLL
I get this.. A jar full of one billion fireflies to be released, Because it doesn’t matter everything is a misconception and I will be forever disappointed by failed expectations. Expectations are empty bubbles floating awaiting to be popped with my pen that I write with- Kaleidoscope Thoughts By Amy
When music becomes your medication.
Lately I’ve been out of mind, you ripped the razor blade away 21 years ago but hand me the knife today. Why? I’m going to try to take all these pitiful emotions and turn them into art. You know I always win because Im just that good so dont play your games for show because the only thing it show is how foolish you really are.
Calm me down before I sleep
‘Cause I don’t know where I’ve just been
And the morning seems so far away
And the drugs just hit, so I’m wide awake
Not gonna waste my life ’cause I’ve been fucked up
‘Cause it doesn’t matter
So waste my time, and God save all of us And the walls , they’ll shatter And I wont let my insecurities define who I am, I am not gonna waste my life cause Ive been ficked up Cause it dosnt matter.
Take a breath and try to think straight
‘Cause therе’s so much pressure on my fuckin’ brain!
And my blood runs thin cause I’m off my facе…
And my shoulders weigh more than I can take..
(I can’t fucking take it)
Not gonna waste my life ’cause I’ve been fucked up
‘Cause it doesn’t matter
So waste my time, and God save all of us
And the walls, they’ll shatter
And I won’t let my insecurities define who I am, I am
Not gonna waste my life ’cause I’ve been fucked up
‘Cause it doesn’t matter-
