I’ve played many roles in my life and wore many hats
Throughout all of it, I have remained sane, solo, and prosperous.
Enjoying the many fruits of my labor I have never understood pain or sorrow
The world seemed to be mine for the taking
Until I met you…
Now my mind is filled with thoughts of desperation and despair.
Not knowing how to fill the void that is in me.
A hole so wide and so deep and there’s no jumping over it.
There are two paths around this hole.
The righteous path or the deceptive path
I need to choose a path and follow it
I’ve walked halfway through both and still cannot see the end.
So I turned back in the hole is bigger, a void pulling everything in it.
I stand and watch as my most precious memories are being dragged into this black pit.
I take a breath I need to get the pieces back to make myself whole again.
I jump into the darkness and my fears take over.
The blackness surrounds me.
I feel it as it suctions itself to my body.
I choke my lungs feel empty crying for one breath.
Gasping for a small drop of oxygen to get me through the night
I pray that God releases me from my fear.
Let me grab hold of something.
My hands frantically reaching out for anything to bring me back to reality
I feel a limb and I grab hold.
I close my eyes and only with my mind can I see the way out.
I can see the light and the steps to get me out.
I grab at the bottom one just inches short.
I grab a full breath I taste the sweet taste of oxygen and swing from the limb.
Up the steps
I climbed them, hundreds of steps to get out.
As I reach the top I see the doorway brightly lit for me to walk through.
I take a deep breath in and step through.
As I open my eyes I decided to begin my day anew without you
With a new hat and a new role
This time I will be happy
I’m a writer… I love to write! I’ve been writing since I was eight years old. I can’t imagine life without stories. My life, and your life it’s a story that we are writing everyday.