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The Sadness

I sink downDown to the deepest depths of hellI allow myself to fallTo fall from withinIt’s a feelingWhen the sadness takes overYou can feel itIt starts in the pit of your stomachThe empty hole that wants to swallow you upIt starts as just a little knot of unpleasantnessMaybe you fight it at firstMaybe you give…

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Stage

I fake my way through lifeEvery day I wake and take the stageI put on the costume and don the accessoriesI play the part of a happy motherA fulfilled wifeA successful businesswomanEvery day I read the lines that life has written for meI am gratefulI am happyI am lovedI look at my husband and tell…

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The Beast

Can we see the end of this turmoil
The end of the suffering
Many days I watch and wait for the end of it
The blood that seeps onto the floor

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Look To The Future

She saw her future just a little past the lake. It called to her from across the water She started towards the future that sat on the other side As she took her first steps towards the water She felt her past pulling her back The past that was following close behind Her past kept…

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The Fog

We heard the siren just seconds before we saw the fog. We had all heard the stories, but none of us believed it, until it started getting closer. At first, it was just a rumor. A problem somewhere else, but soon it began to spread out farther. It began in another country; we never thought…

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Eavesdrop

I wasn’t trying to listen, really I wasn’t. But as I approached the corner of the hallway I heard my name. I stopped and peeked around the corner. I saw Betty and Conner standing close to each other talking in a hushed voice. I knew I shouldn’t listen but I really couldn’t help it. How…

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My Happiness

                                                                What is happiness? For me… Happiness is making it to the bathroom on time Happiness is talking to a long lost friend Happiness is getting a close parking spot Happiness is remembering to bring in your bags Happiness is having exact change Happiness is having daughters Happiness is a child’s laughter Happiness is lunch…

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Bubbles

On a warm spring afternoon, the family all gathered for a party. Everyone was so excited to see each other; they all knew that it had been too long. People hugged each other for the first time in over a year and felt connected in a way that they may never take for granted again.…

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Scornful

Am I so jaded that I cannot watch a love story without venom filling my blood Have I been so wronged that the sight of someone else’s happiness brings me to madness To see them laugh To see them smile To see them hug Bile fills my throat When did I become the me that…

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Daisies

The daisies speak to me The fields where they live invite me in I see them standing tall and proud Yet bending and flowing with the wind The white petals are soft under my fingers The green stems are strong I feel them tickle my leg as I walk through them Letting my fingers brush…

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Let Fate Follow

I feel hopeless Desperate Like I’m at the end of my rope I can see myself down a hole Dangling at the end of the rope With miles beneath me to fall The question is Should I let go Let the fall take me Let Fate do her job It was fate that brought me…

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The Right Choice

She watched him walk out of her life and she knew it was for the best. It was never good even at its best. It wasn’t for a lack of trying. They were both too broken when they met. I guess they spent so much time trying to fix each other that they never saw…

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Old Friend

Hello my friend, It is saddening to see you here, once more.  We haven’t spoken in a while, how have you been? Where have your travels taken you? I was doing well while you were gone, adjusted to the right channel on the radio. No static, hardly any advertisements. I was operating and accepting the…

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Waiting for One Day

I am alone in this You look right at me but still don’t see me You look through me as if I don’t exist Yet here I stay Next to you Waiting for the day The day things will change You don’t listen to me You say you hear me But you’re not listening My…

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Searching

Days to night I wait Always waiting Waiting for the right time The right time to move forward The right time to be happy Always looking for the next thing Minutes to hours Time runs from me I chase it Ignoring the present Ignoring the now Still searching Months to years Missing out on the…

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I Saw You

I saw you and I knew you You didn’t see me I was like a ghost in the wind I held my breath and waited You didn’t see me The world spun around I held my breath and waited I wanted to speak The world spun around I felt dizzy I wanted to speak I…

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The Journey

The journey I begin I wander I walk I make this mine I find my words They are written among the stars I pluck them One By One Each word turns into a sentence The sentence turns into a paragraph The paragraph turns into a story The one you have before you The one that…

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Where the Wind Takes You

I stand at the top of the trees From here I see everything I feel everything The touch of the rough bark scratching my skin The softness of the leaves brushing my cheek The air caressing my face The coolness of it relaxes the spirit Above me Birds whistle They sing High notes Low notes…

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Do I Scare You

Do I scare you Like I scare me My reflection Mirrors Windows Puddle Staring at me Judging me Condemning me to my mind I live in chaos I embrace it Make it a part of me It coils around me Like ivy Growing from the ground up Wraps around me Mummifies me The chaos empties…

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One More Day

It’s been a year since the last time I saw Ren. Time gets away from me sometimes. But the one thing that I always remember is my annual coffee date with Ren. Every year on the same day we meet up for coffee and a catch-up. This of course entails us reliving old memories and…

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